I have prerenal azotemia. Instead of an increase in BUN and creatinine, I have an elevation of frustration and bordem. I think I have found a cure... Bon Jovi. Yes you read correctly - Bon Jovi.
Unless you are in the medical field you won't understand me. Hell I don't think I understand me. In a nutshell I am bored and frustrated. The overwhelming desire to be the perfect doctor, employee and mother to my dogs is sucking the life out of me.
Last week was a bad. Its actually been bad for the last few weeks. Most everything that came through the door had failing kidneys, cancer and liver disease. Most of them were too sick and are no longer with us. One puppy died waking up from anesthesia but with team work we got her back and she is doing amazing!! The adrenaline and euphoria of saving the life and also losing lives is enough to make me want to cry and scream. Crying is ok but screaming at the top of your lungs in an urban area is just not acceptable.
So back to Bon Jovi. I have always been a fan. Can't remember a middle school/high school dance that didn't end with Never Say Good-bye. My first kiss was to Bad Medicine. I was the typical teenage Bon Jovi fan owning Slippery When Wet. So 2 weeks ago I decided to get a ticket for the hell of it - everyone at work made fun of me. I got a floor seat off ebay at the last minute and went alone.
I bought "Have a Nice Day" after seeing that the majority of the show was new stuff. So for 2 1/2 hours on the ride up I listened and became a disciple of the Bon Jovi. I found myself rolling down the highway shouting the songs at the top of my lungs. They struck a chord with me and I felt empowered to make a change. To change my life to live it the way I want to - not the way I have been.
By the time I got to the concert I was pumped. The show started and when everyone stood up I started to cry - not cause I am some Bon Jovi freak that faints at the site of him - but because there was 6 foot 5 extra large guy infront of me that blocked the stage and jumbo-tron. No matter how I twisted, turned or how tall I tried to make myself I could see a f*#ken thing!! So I started to screamand sing very loudly and very badly. I felt amazing when the show was over (although I believe my right tonsil is on the floor of the arena). I screamed with all of my might and cleansed all of the toxins. It was a much need diuresis! Who would have thought that one album and concert would have be so cathartic. (I did eventually get to see the show - the chick next to me got sick and had to leave - bummer for her)
Since I left the show I have not been able to stop singing the songs - they have been playing on every music player I own. I have been smiling and happy. I have become obsessed with the 2 latest ventures of Bon Jovi - Crush and Have a Nice Day. Maybe it was the screaming, maybe its the lyrics - I don't know. What-ever it was - it made me happier. So thank you Jon, Richie, Tico and David - You Rocked my World!!! See you in Vegas!!
"Oh, if there's one thing I hang onto that gets me thru the night
I ain't gonna do what I don't' want to; I'm gonna live my life
Shining like a diamond, rolling with the dice
Standing on the ledge, I show the wind how to fly
When the world gets in my face, I say…
Have a nice day
Have a nice day"
~Bon Jovi~
"'I'm smart enough to know what I don't know
I'm fool enough to stay when I should go
You work, you work, you cry, you cry
You watch your whole life pass you by
Sometimes you've got to close your eyes to see
I'm complicated, I get frustrated
Right or wrong, love or hate it
I'm complicated, you can't sedate it
Heard that song but I won't play it
It's alright, it's OK, you wouldn't want me any other way
Momma, keep on praying ‘cause I ain't changin'
I'm complicated, yeah
I'm complicated, yeah"
~Bon Jovi~
